A friend & a mentor once told me :
" No matter how much you hate to work, work actually gives you, your self worth.
Through work, you build your self esteem. By working, you earn achievements.
If work does not exist, your life would be meaningless "
Unfortunately, what he said is true.
As i sit around at work, waiting for the next job opportunity, and it seems ages before anyone calls... i feel worthless.
As i sit around with no more passion in my current job, because of problematic clients, campaigns that do not seem to be going anywhere, and people getting more and more small minded, work comes to a standstill. I feel no pride in what i do, i feel no joy at being at work, i feel worthless.
With this, my mind wanders, i feel lifeless. I feel trap.
(Who ever said the idle mind is the devil's playground is right)
Patience is not my strength. But i know that the BIG man up there has BIG plans for me.
I just need to be still, and wait.
I hope i have work soon. Then, will i find my self worth. Then i won't feel so lifeless & trapped.
About Me
- Fruit of Eden
- The adventures and misadventures of a Teo-chew fruit that fell from the garden of Eden. Rolling and tumbling along life's seasonal changes. Sometimes sweet, sometimes sour, sometimes pickeled & salty and sometimes a little bitter. This fruit will continue to tumble and roll through life's journey until one day she enters into a season of maturity & ripening. Until then... please be patient, God is not finished with me yet.
1 comment:
~~~~~~~~~~~geekchic
Dearest darling Jess, I used to feel that too but I no longer allow myself to be made to feel worthy (or not) because of an organization. Maybe because I'm feeling bitter, maybe because I'm feeling old, maybe also because I've grown hard from this corporate crap, maybe it's all of the above and MORE. But, at the end of it, I think what makes me who I am is not because of what I do or the achievements I have but because I know I'm a princess in His kingdom :) To me, that means so much more than any design win, product released, huge revenues, patents or inventions. Sure, all those are fun and it sure pads the resume up nicely but at the end of it all, I'd like to remind myself that I'm thankful that the Big Guy up there's enabled us to achieve all that we've achieved.
It's much more satisfying to please Him than pleasing humans.
You can see I really hate this corporate crap. Hee :)
Hang in there and chin up, dear girl. A walk with Him is always like scaling the mountains, valleys and plateaus. It's frustrating sometimes but it'll always be rewarding.
Keeping you in my prayers :)
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